I´ll never be content with the surface of things. So often we hold ourselves from going deep because we are scared it may be more than we can handle or worry what people might think. But we will grow so much more from it. Exposing our hearts is not weakness. It´s bravery. It´s authenticity. It´s love.
I know it can be scary some times. We all have felt that. I know i´d been criticized after sharing my personal writings several times. And i know maybe i expose too much my heart. But i believe that when we share our stories of vulnerability, we send hope to the world. The surface may be a comfortable place, but connection is formed in the depths.
When you guys reach out to me and share your stories of sorrow, my heart aches. I wish i could hug you and i feel so frustrated when i can´t. So the one thing i can do is to give you my words. It surely doesn´t feel like enough. I wish i could take away your pain and solve it all. But my words are part of who i am, so i offer them to you with all of my heart. I want to use them for the rest of my life to let you know you are NOT alone. We are all in this messy life together.
You are my people. I see you. I believe in you. So tell me anything. Tell me everything. I am not in this world to make small talk. Talk real to me. I am here for you. I want to be a reminder that it is okay to share what you are feeling inside. Your voice is needed and it matters. A lot.
WHAT A YEAR!!!!!! One of the most special years i have ever lived. Not exactly because it was an easy one; in fact, this year started with such a pain in the heart i thought i couldn´t make it. All i wanted was to cry and hide. But God never left my side. He was there all the time, listening to my prayers and making plans for my life. He took my hand and carried me when i wanted to give up. He hugged me through my family and friends´ arms. The ones that never left me alone. The ones that made everything that was on their hands to make me smile. The ones i love with my whole heart. So yes, i went through some of the hardest experiences of my life but i learned things about myself and the world that have changed me forever. I never could have imagined all the plans God had for me this year. All the yellow that He sent to my life.
For first time, i decided to follow a call i have felt for years… i started my blog and through that i won the most precious gift i could ever think of: connection. I had the chance to connect my own story with the most fascinating stories from people around the world. I began authentic friendships and rediscovered my passion which is to write, to listen and to share our hearts. Then, God blessed me enough for fulfilling a strong desire of my heart: going to the WYD!!!! I had the time of my life, exploring a wonderful country with the most beautiful people that crossed my road. I made friendships that will last a lifetime. And i made a new family at the other side of the world. But i also loved coming back and enjoying my family and home. A family that loves purely. A family that is always there in the ups and downs. I encountered old friends and made new ones along the way. I learned so much from the people that i know. I finished the hardest subject of my career and didn´t even shed a tear (yep, i am incredibly proud of it). I read my favorite books and shared them with the most special people in the world. Last but definitely not least i found a wonderful guy that stole my heart so fast in ways i could never dream of. But most of all, i fell in love with Jesus with all that i am and realized He loves me back and will never let me down.
So definitely this year wasn´t what i planned. Because that is just how God works. He surprises us in ways we could never even pray for. This year was incredibly perfect and i can´t help but cry when i think of all the blessings that He filled it with. My heart is happy. Excited. Whole. I just can give thanks and scream: How wonderful is to be alive!!
I wish you all that 2017 will be the happiest year of your life. Thank you for your constant love and support. You bless me in more ways than you could know.
All the LOOOOOVEEEE to you my dear yellow readers!!!! Big big hugs!!