Thanks, 2016

WHAT A YEAR!!!!!! One of the most special years i have ever lived. Not exactly because it was an easy one; in fact, this year started with such a pain in the heart i thought i couldn´t make it. All i wanted was to cry and hide. But God never left my side. He was there all the time, listening to my prayers and making plans for my life. He took my hand and carried me when i wanted to give up. He hugged me through my family and friends´ arms. The ones that never left me alone. The ones that made everything that was on their hands to make me smile. The ones i love with my whole heart. So yes, i went through some of the hardest experiences of my life but i learned things about myself and the world that have changed me forever. I never could have imagined all the plans God had for me this year. All the yellow that He sent to my life.

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For first time, i decided to follow a call i have felt for years… i started my blog and through that i won the most precious gift i could ever think of: connection. I had the chance to connect my own story with the most fascinating stories from people around the world. I began authentic friendships and rediscovered my passion which is to write, to listen and to share our hearts. Then, God blessed me enough for fulfilling a strong desire of my heart: going to the WYD!!!! I had the time of my life, exploring a wonderful country with the most beautiful people that crossed my road. I made friendships that will last a lifetime. And i made a new family at the other side of the world. But i also loved coming back and enjoying my family and home. A family that loves purely. A family that is always there in the ups and downs. I encountered old friends and made new ones along the way. I learned so much from the people that i know. I finished the hardest subject of my career and didn´t even shed a tear (yep, i am incredibly proud of it). I read my favorite books and shared them with the most special people in the world. Last but definitely not least i found a wonderful guy that stole my heart so fast in ways i could never dream of. But most of all, i fell in love with Jesus with all that i am and realized He loves me back and will never let me down.

So definitely this year wasn´t what i planned. Because that is just how God works. He surprises us in ways we could never even pray for. This year was incredibly perfect and i can´t help but cry when i think of all the blessings that He filled it with. My heart is happy. Excited. Whole. I just can give thanks and scream: How wonderful is to be alive!!

I wish you all that 2017 will be the happiest year of your life. Thank you for your constant love and support. You bless me in more ways than you could know.

All the LOOOOOVEEEE to you my dear yellow readers!!!! Big big hugs!! 

Truly yours,

Carola💛

Daniel: a godly soul!

Let me tell you about Daniel, a soul that has come to bless my life. I got to know him during a mission trip (one of the things that fills the most our hearts), and as soon as i saw him i realized he was the kind of person that carried light all around. One simply cannot pass by without seeing his smile; one of the brightest most genuine smiles a person could have. One that reflects what he has inside.

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Daniel is a great guy who is always giving more and more of himself. He is attentive to the need and passionate about changing people´s lives, especially the young ones. He is a fearless leader with a humble and graceful heart. He stands up for what is right and looks at the bright side of life. He has a free spirit and a fun sense of humor. He is never prideful. He is adventurous, gentle, strong, hard working and knows how to guide others through faith and love.

To be honest, i think any girl would be lucky to be with Daniel. I am sure he could have any job and achieve anything people usually dream about. But Daniel is unlike anyone else. He doesn´t set for worldly things cause his heart is focused on God. Some years ago he left it all to go and serve in South Sudan and he realized what his vocation was. I am sure it hasn´t been an easy thing to do at all, trusting and following God´s plans is not as simple as it sounds. But he is set on Love. He doesn´t let his doubts and fears take him away from his call. Today, he is already a pre-novice of the Salesians and i couldn´t be more proud of his enormous courage and heart. God is constantly using Daniel to remind me of the greater purpose we all have. Not the comfort or the fame but to serve and share love all over the world. To see life through an eternal perspective and embrace our call.

I still remember when i told him i had doubts about my own call he wrote me exactly this words: “I am always available and more than happy to talk! Just let me know. I think it is so important to have other people to talk to about everything and just be able to be open and honest”. Isn´t that what true friendship looks like? He selflessly sacrifices his time to help and makes you feel accepted and loved. After talking on skype that day i found out my heart felt so much peace inside. I knew i had come to the right place. He is the kind of friend who will pray for you and always point you back to Christ.

Daniel, you have been gifted with one of the most precious hearts. Never doubt about the power you have to change the world. Thanks for bringing Heaven to earth wherever you are. Thanks for serving the unseen, listening to me and encouraging my walk with God. There is so much i can learn from you and your relationship with Him. I can´t wait to see where He reunites us again, wether it is on another mission trip or enjoying the Northern lights. It´s been an absolute honor to meet you and i know you´ll be a friend for life. 💛


I ask for your support as he embarks himself in this journey. Let´s pray for him, that he will continue blessing many lives through his walk. I deeply encourage you to check out his blog; i have no doubts you will find a friend in him and be inspired by the pureness of his heart.

“You have to live the life you were born to live”

This is a post about one of my all time favorite movies: “The Sound of Music”. A movie that has the perfect combination for me; splendid sets and scenery, sassy children, pretty costumes, beautiful melodies and choreographies (i dream to learn that waltz one day), and Maria´s charming personality. And why not adding the fact that Julie Andrews is just perfect for the role, like seriously, who doesn´t love her?. 

The film opens with breathtaking scenes… from trees, to lakes and snow covered mountains, the camera takes you through an aerial view of the most majestic landscape. And then, it focus in a particular place; a green field where the camera slowly starts to zooms in, till we recognize the figure of a woman with wide-opened arms who is joyfully twirling across the hill; rejoicing in the beauty of the nature and the feeling of being fully alive…and then, the music starts!!!!!!! It is such an enchanting scene that will always make my soul sigh.

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And, as if that wasn´t perfect enough, this movie also has the perfect amount of romance for me. A romance where, contrary to most of nowadays films, the characters slowly and innocently fall in love.

This movie is based on a real story (even though it changes many facts), but is often seen as a very childish and non-sense film. Sure it is a very “pink story” but i think there´s so much more than that. Besides all the flowers and cheesy songs, there is also a very heartbreaking part. First of all, the fact that it is placed during the Anschluss (when Hitler annexed Austria), and then, there´s also Von Trapp´s loss of his wife and his inability to relate with his children, as well as Maria´s confusion (which i will mention again later).

So yes, it is indeed a very joyful movie but it has also its dark parts. It may have songs and choreographies that make it look very unrealistic, but hey, it is a musical, and beyond all that there is also a movie with a very deep and touching message inside.The film emphasizes how sometimes one needs to take very hard and sorrowful decisions (like leaving your beloved country) in order to fight for what you believe, and how standing for the good isn´t always the easy way but it is definitely the right thing to do. In the other hand, it also promotes family values and shows that kindness is the strongest force in the world!! Could something be more uplifting than that?.

I have seen this movie dozens of times and i don’t think i will ever get tired of it. One of the things i love the most is that every single time i do, i discover new life lessons on it!!! I could actually write pages and pages about it, but i will try to focus in the particular message that captured my heart as i watched it last night.

So, let´s go back “to the very beginning”… there´s this beautiful opening where we see Maria having a blast as she dances on the green hills. But suddenly, she sees the Abbey from the distance and remembers that she has to go back, so she runs to the convent and apologizes for arriving late to prayer time (once more).

Contrary to what we would think, the Mother Abbess doesn´t reprimand her; instead she talks to her and asks if she really feels monastic life is the right thing for her. Maria replies that she always felt that´s what she should do, but surprisingly the Mother Abbess seems to know more about her than Maria itself, so she asks her to leave the convent for some time in order to find out what she really wants. And that´s where Maria´s and Von Trapp´s stories will cross their paths, for she is sent with them to take care of his “mischievous” kids. Even though Maria was hesitant to the idea she has to obey the Mother Abess, so she leaves the convent and embarks herself on this new adventure, with her dress, hat, and a guitar on hand.

As the time passes, she starts getting more attached to the family and some feelings towards the Captain start growing in her heart, but she tries to avoid them focusing on the kids as much as she can. And it isn´t till the Baronesse (the woman Von Trapp is engaged to) talks with her about Von Trapp´s attraction towards her, when Maria realizes the depth of her feelings for him. She feels as she can´t bear it anymore so she decides to leave the house and runs back to the convent.

She returns filled with doubts and spends some days in solitude, trying to hide her feelings and clear up her mind. But eventually she has to go to the Mother Abbess, who is willing to know why she came back before it was planned. Maria confesses she couldn´t stay there any longer because she was confused and frightened in a way she never felt before. She says “i knew that here i´d be away from it. i’d be safe…i can’t face him again”, so after those words (which are clearly referring to the Captain) the Mother Abbess explains her that the monastery walls werent built to hide from the world.

Even though those are one of the most revealing words she could have said, Maria seems reluctant to them cause she feels as if the only way in which she could show her love for God was by becoming a nun. But the Mother Abbess explains her how married life is just as holy as monastic life, and that choosing the first one doesn´t mean she loves God any less, so she simply has to find out the way He has designed for her. 

She still begs to stay there, but thankfully the Mother Abbess doesn´t give up easily and  tells her the monastery isn´t a place to hide from her problems, and that instead she has to face them. So she suggests her to go back with the Captain and stay where her heart really is, and says one of my favorite (and most enlightening) quotes: “You have to live the life you were born to live”. Aren´t these powerful words?. And they are the ones i want to share with you today.

So if you are one of those who had enough patience to read till this point (thank you, you are one to admire haha), and is wondering what all of this has to do with you. Or if the thoughts that are crossing your mind look more or less like this: “seriously, she thought joining a convent would ever cross my mind..or that i could relate to a story as cheesy as that?”, then i have something to say to you.

My dear reader, as i think of the movie i ask myself, how many times i´ve been acting the same way as Maria, how many times i´m so obstinate thinking i have to do “that thing” because it is more “holy”, or “admired” or “easy”, instead of doing what i was really born to do.

I believe we all have our own “convent”, our refugee, the place where we hide ourselves from the world. Maybe our convent is a person, a relationship, a job, or even a material thing; it is where we feel safe or what we think we must cling to. But it is so very important to listen to ourselves and ask if what we are doing is really what we were called to do.

I wish this was as easy as it sounds, but the truth is that sometimes it is difficult to discover it by our own. We are sometimes so stubborn, that we may need the help of someone else who recognizes gifts inside us that we personally cannot see or loves us enough to found out we are going in the wrong direction. This is so very well expressed in the movie, cause if it wasn´t for the Mother Abbess (who saw Maria´s potential and realized she wasn´t really following her call) maybe she would have never taken the risk to go out of the convent.

When i ask others what would they think if Maria had never gone out and the whole movie took place inside the convent, they usually say they wouldn´t even watch the movie, that it would be too boring or it wouldn´t make sense at all. And that´s exactly what i think it would happen with our lives if we never did what we were called to do.

When i personally think of what would have happened if she didn´t go out of the convent, i imagine she would maybe have been happy or had a beautiful life as a nun, but she definitely wouldn´t be living it to the fullest. She wouldn´t be expressing her own gifts and pouring them to the world, cause she would have been in the wrong place just for the fear of facing her call. 

I believe we all have different gifts. Unfortunately, sometimes we see some gifts in others that we like, and so we want to do the same they do cause we wrongly think that´s an easier, more valuable or holy path. But the truth is God gave VALUABLE and unique gifts to everyone. And it would be such a waste if our fear made us too blind to use them along our lives.

As the movie teaches us, there are different ways to express love on this earth and we have to find our own. Sometimes it won´t be easy and it will probably take us out from our comfort zone, but just think about Maria for a moment and how much she would have lost if she never took the risk to embrace her call. So remember that “when the Lord closes a door, somewhere He opens a window”; open your heart to listen to your own voice or the voice of those around you. If they tell you they don´t see you fully alive where you are at, take time to think if they could be in any way right.

So before i finish this very long text, i invite you to ask yourself two simple questions: First, are you genuinely happy doing what you do? and, second are you sure this is what you were called to do, or is it more what you think you should do?. And in case those questions were negative take a moment to ask yourself, when do you feel the happiest?. The answer is probably what this life is waiting for you to do.

I think this is one of the lessons the movie can teach to us: we see Maria, obstinate to stay at the convent, when the truth is that her gifts can´t be expressed inside the convent walls. Contrary to what she first thought, it is when she goes out that she brings much more light and love to the world and when she finds the ultimate joy.

Cause that is true; we are happiest when we do what we were called to do, what we´ve been gifted with. So today my wish for you is that you embrace your true calling, whatever it might be. I want nothing more than to know you are being the person God created you to be and that you are living the life YOU WERE BORN TO LIVE.

Sincerely yours,

Carola 💛


I want to dedicate this post to Br. Robert, a priest who passed away some months ago in a very unexpected way. A priest who was a big fan of this movie and who lived the life he was born to live to the fullest (even though it was a very short one). Thanks for having the courage to do so, thanks for inspiring and bringing life to others with your presence. I always imagine you singing and dancing all these lovely songs in heaven.

God is bigger than your sins!

My life is full of sins, but if i told you about them all i could probably make an entire book! Yes i know, it is terrible. It is a part of me i wish didn´t exist or at least nobody knew. But i want to be open and honest and show you the very imperfect person i am. And for that i´ll tell you about a sin that has been especially hard for me to deal with. I hope you are sitting down, drinking a cup of coffee in the comfort of your house, in case you get terrified while reading the very sinful story of my life.

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The story starts with a boy. He was new at school and he easily turned into a friend for me. He was so very fun and intelligent and most of all he had a sensibility i never saw in a guy before. After some time of knowing each other we went camping with school and he told me he liked me in a more than friends way. Unfortunately, even though i adored this guy, the feeling wasn´t mutual. I saw him as a very good friend, just that.

Time made us more than good friends, we shared a bond that is hard to describe. We made a lot of fun of each other but we also spent hours having the most meaningful conversations on the phone. But even though we were very good friends this guy didn´t really give up on loving me as something more. I remember sometimes i wished i could make him happy but i guess i was too afraid of love. So we continued like that… we lived many incredible things together and shared the deepest parts of our hearts. But time passed by, and sooner or later this guy would end giving up on me (how not?). He started a relationship with one of my friends and i was actually very happy and relieved. But things didn´t go as good as i thought. His girlfriend wouldn´t like him to talk so much with me, so our friendship started to suffer a bit. It was so very hard for me cause i didn´t have any another friend that was quite like him, but i had to hide my feelings and try to continue with my life.

I did, and for many months it more or less worked. We just talked some insignificant words when we were around. It was hard but it was okay, this guy deserved to be happy with her. But slowly, we both started to talk a bit more again, we were both happy but it was difficult trying not to cause any problem for that. For some moments i said to myself it wasn´t right to be close to him and so we would stop talking again for several months. But eventually we both came back to each other. It was a cycle and i didn´t know how to get rid of that. I guess my heart wasn´t so strong.

There´s so much more in between these years, but i guess you are wondering what all of this has to do with my sin. So i´ll go to the point. He broke up with his girlfriend and came back to me. I was so scared and confused, and we both tried to stop it, but our hearts didn´t seem to listen to that.

I worried a lot over that and carried it alone cause i knew it wasn´t something good, i couldn´t share it with anyone. It was a time of so much confussion. He said i should start living and give a chance to love for once in my life, so after so many doubts i decided he was right. I also deserved to be happy and to love someone.

Some days it felt really good, but some days i felt as if we didn´t deserve to be happy together. Not because we didn´t love each other but because there was someone who could get hurt through it. But unfortunately i was so very weak and unmature that i couldn´t stand that.

We just couldn´t believe that after 3 years we still had feelings for the other one, so i started to think maybe he was “the one” and finally took the decission to give it a try. We both agreed that this would take a very long time, we would wait for at least six months (we were both going to live abroad for some time) and after coming back we would tell our friend and start with all that.

It wasn´t a very good plan, but i tried to make myself feel better thinking things like “no one chooses who to love” or “we can´t fight against true love”. I know they were just excuses to keep me sane, but i believed them and so they worked most of the time. 

But this plans never took on march. Unfortunately (or maybe luckily) our friend got to know it and so everything crashed. I remember i was out of the city while it happened so i didn´t know anything about that. When i came back and realized what happened i brought into tears and didn´t stop crying for a week. I felt so so ashamed and sad that i didn´t know what to do. We never did anything serious and we just saw each other like 2 times after he broke up with her, but anyway i knew it wasn´t something to be proud of.

The worst of all is that i realized instead of just me being sad (like it was previously), i ended up causing the three of us so much pain. For days i didn´t feel like myself, and my family didn´t know what to do to make me feel better. I felt so broken and i didn´t understand how something so “innocent” and pure as love could cause a situation as disgusting as that. I felt as the worst person alive.

After some days i knew i had to face what i´d done. I talked to my friends but i knew there was no way to justify it. I felt they would all hate me from that day on. I thought my life was not going to be the same after that. And i must confess that in some way i was right. I felt like a different person, i felt embarrassed of myself and so unworthy of God´s love. For many nights i couldn´t sleep and i prayed i could go back on time to erase all that. But i obviously couldn´t; the people i hurt was already hurt and i couldn´t forgive myself for that. It was a sin made out of love, but it was still a sin. It took years and lots of prayer to start forgiving myself.

I still would change things if i had the chance to go back on time, but as hard as it may sound, i don´t know if i should. It has burdened my heart for a very long time, but it is also a part of me now. Not because that´s the person i am, but because of it i can choose to never be that person again.

For a long time i let my sin define me. I labeled myself as a “bad friend”, “horrible person”, “weak girl” or any other negative adjective i found. But now i know all those labels weren´t right. The only label we should identify ourselves with is as “humans”. That´s why i don´t see “good” or “bad” people. I just see people. I see humans who make mistakes, but who also have goodness inside of them.

So what i want to say to you is that our sins don´t define who we are. Sure they mold and shape us, but they will never determine us. Even though i still pray every night i wouldn´t have caused pain to anyone, today i can say i am trying to learn to be grateful for my sins. Of course it is still something i regret and a part of me i´m very ashamed of. But thanks to that sin i´m totally sure i would never do something like that again!

So as weird as this could sound, i learned to love my sins because they remind me i am a human. I love my sins cause they make me understand better the sins of others. I love my sins cause they taught me my true friends still see me as a friend, not as a sinner. I love my sins because i know they make me fight everyday to become a better person and remind me about the unconditional love God has for all of us.

I must admit that some times i still think of my future husband and get afraid of telling him this cause i think nobody would love me after knowing that part of me. But please. Don´t let your sins scare you and stop you from living your life. Even though there will be people who unfriend or reject you, be sure you will also find people who will see more in you than that. People who will think you are still worthy no matter how big you have sinned.

Just imagine if we never sinned. Maybe we would consider ourselves perfect and never try to become better. Maybe we would never surrender to God. Sins help us to be humble and realize that God is so much bigger than any mistake in our lives.

I hope after reading this you won´t be too scared of the person i am. I honestly wish no one knew this part of me, but i wrote it down praying that this ugly and sinful story will make you feel better in some way. It´s not a post to encourage you to sin, but it is a post to encourage you to forgive others and forgive yourself. We all sin, but we can´t let sins define who we are. I don´t want you to go months and months without sleeping, hating yourself or going through the hell i lived that time (thinking you actually deserve all that).

Instead, just think that if even God forgives you, why wouldn´t you forgive yourself? Our sins are there to remind us we need to go in the other way. Don´t stay inside of them, open the door and let them go away, and work hard everyday so they will never ever come back again.

You are so much more than the mistakes you have made. Don´t get stuck in your sins, the beautiful thing about life is that we can always grow and change. We all have a past and have made mistakes, but as i said.. it is the past and God forgives us every day. 💛

P.S. I want to say sorry to anyone i have ever hurt. Even though i can´t erase my acts, it is because of you that i want to try again and become a better version of myself.

New Prayer Corner!!

I am so thankful for everything my “yellow road” has brought and taught to me. I´m thankful for the people i have connected with; the people who have shared their struggles, dreams and fears with me.

Every time i read from you i wish i could hug you. I wish i could change your situation and take away any pain you feel. I wish i could do more. And sometimes i worry the only thing i can offer you is my words.

But i believe in the power of community. And i believe something wonderful happens when we join together in prayer. Miracles happen. Fear somehow turns into hope.

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My dear yellow readers, i want to know…are you struggling with something? If you answered yes, let me tell you one thing: You are NOT alone. I deeply care about you. I don´t know what season you are going through, but i am here to talk. Tell me anything. Tell me everything. I want to stand with you and support you every step of the way. It´s been laid in my heart to pray more for you.

My dear yellow world seeks to be a safe place where we can talk real and share our vulnerabilities. Where strangers become friends. Where you encounter other people you can relate to; people who believe in you and lift you up. I want to create a supportive space. That´s what i am here for.

So i opened a new prayer corner especially dedicated for you. If you have any prayer request, wether it is for you or for someone you love, just let me know. Never hesitate to write me. I promise i´ll read. I am here for you.

I WANT TO BE A FRIEND FOR YOU. 💛

Add your color to the world!!

We are fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14). God isn´t content with using the same mold to create all of us. In fact, i like to think in order to paint this big canvas we call “world”, God uses a different color to create each one of us.

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Unfortunately, we as humans tend to think our color isn´t as bright, delicate, beautiful or important as those around us, and in doing so we stop ourselves from pouring out the unique color we have inside. It´s true that our color may be different from the other ones, but that´s exactly what God planned. In order to turn this world into a masterpiece He needs the exact tone only YOU can give. So don´t get frustrated if you can’t add the same colors others add; instead be proud that you can add your own essence… a special color no one else can.

Just imagine if blue felt jealous of green; so upset cause he can´t paint the trees and the grass that he would forget to paint the sea and the sky. Or if yellow was so focused on becoming pink that would forget to make the sun shine. If all colors wanted to be the same our world would lose so much beauty in the act.

Now think how every color is needed to make a painting work. In the canvas, colors don´t compete; each one has a purpose and together they bring harmony to it. 🎨

So next time you are doubting of your beauty or your worth, just remember about this. God was creative enough to give you a unique color, a specific purpose that only you can fill. Don´t underestimate it. What you have to offer is greater than you believe. Your color is precious. The world would not look the same without your hue. Please make sure to paint it as only you can do. 💛

“The toothpaste lady”

Meet my friend Kay. One of the most beautiful souls i know, and a woman who perfectly exemplifies why #everypagematters. Kay´s favorite things include drawing, music and going around with her wheelchair. She loves purple just as much as i love yellow and laughing is one of her supernatural powers. She lives in the present moment and appreciates when others are around. She may not have a perfect life (just like all of us) but she doesnt complain, instead she tries to make the best out of it every day.

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I asked her what makes her happy, without knowing her answer would be a big lesson for my life. She answered she is the happiest during “brushing teeth time”. Let me explain. She lives in a residence with many other women, but most of them have several problems which unable them to do many things by their own. Brushing their teeth is one of them. They require help, and fortunately i had the chance to be useful during their routine a few times. Surprisingly this routine brought excitement all around, most of the women waited on line for their turn and some of them even tried to fool me so i could brush their teeth twice. They seemed to have so much fun.

Meanwhile, Kay patiently waited on her wheelchair with a toothpaste and dozens of toothbrushes on her lap, so every time i finished with someone i would go back to her to get another toothbrush for the next one. She was so helpful all the time and made sure every single friend passed before she brushed her teeth. This simple act made me know her in a deeper level. I learned how much it means for her to serve and realized how for this ladies getting their teeth brushed could turn into the highlight of their days. This made me understand how much a bit of attention, a gentle touch, a simple act of service could mean to the people we are surrounded by.

Soon, brushing their teeth became one of my favorite times of the day too, not only because i could have closer contact with each one of them, but because the radiant smiles they gifted me afterwards cant be compared with anything else.

Kay showed me the importance of letting ourselves get excited by the simplest things among our days. She taught me the pleasure it brings to put others first, to share a bit of our time to help and how we all can give love to the world in the most unexpected ways. Even though it could look as something useless or silly, we cant imagine how something as simple as holding a toothpaste can make a difference, we just need to offer ourselves. 

I must say after that, brushing my teeth has never been the same. I used to make it as a part of my routine without really being present on the act; always in such a rush that i never took the time to reflect on that. But after meeting Kay i decided to change my mind. Now while i brush my teeth everyday i try to use it as a time to give thanks for all that i have, as a time to remind myself i can find joy in the simplest things, as a time to remember that i need to offer my smile.

I am so thankful with Kay for reminding me God is present in the daily things. And i pray to always remember her bright shining face as she rejoiced on her new nickname: “the toothpaste lady” as i called her. To remember about the joy of selflessly giving our time and of the greater mission God has called us to do, to proclaim and honor Him in the middle of our every day acts.

Thank you Kay for letting me be your friend and for giving love to the world, in your own particular way. 💛

What Cancer kids have taught to me!

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CHILDHOOD CANCER. One of the most terrific combination of words. One that now is printed in my soul, but which i honestly wanted to hide away from years ago. This two words scared me a lot. I simply couldnt understand why such beautiful and innocent creatures could suffer so much. It all sounded so wrong. I couldnt listen about that without wanting to hide. But God had different plans. He set on my heart the desire of getting close. So i did.

I started volunteering on a hospital with cancer kids. Soon, the checkup routines, medicine names, chemotherapies, kids throwing up or battles against eating food became familiar to me. But that is just the surface. That is not what childhood cancer really means. That is not what my children have taught to me.

During my time there i have witnessed the moment in which kids got informed about their cancer diagnose for the first time. I have learned the unpredictability of our lives. I have heard kids telling me they are having a good day when in fact i know their bodies are hurting a lot. I have learned about optimism. I have seen kids becoming the happiest when someone comes to visit them. I have learned how much it means to share a bit of our time.

I have heard kids whose legs will be amputated talking about how fast they will “run” with their wheelchairs. I learned about having a good attitude and accepting what life throws to us. I have seen kids receiving anonymous donations or gifts. I have learned about authentic solidarity. I have had dozens of “bad hair days” and then encountered sweet little girls proudly showing me their shaved heads. I have learned about perspective.

I have seen kids walking their first steps with prothesis. I have learned about courage. I have seen children faces radiate while sharing with me their biggest dreams. I have learned the importance of pursuing our passions. I have heard kids telling their parents they will get cured without hesitation. I have learned about determination.

I have held their hands while the nurses come close with a syringe. I have learned we can always overcome our fears. I have told and listened many life stories. I have learned the beauty of sharing with others who we are. I have seen parents hiding their tears just to make it easier for their kids. I have learned to sacrifice for love. I have celebrated a free cancer kid. I have learned what true happiness is.

I have seen pain disappeared with joy. I learned laughter is the best medicine of all. I have seen some of those kids turning now into volunteers. I have learned how hearts can grow and give away love after going through so much pain. I have seen the fear in a child´s face. I have learned about the power of comforting others with a hug. I have seen the happiness of a child when getting letters from a loved one. I have learned about the important things in life. I have seen kids unexpectedly getting cured. I have learned the miracle of prayer.

I have listened many kids telling me they cant wait to simply go back to school. I have learned to not take daily things for granted. I have laughed and laughed with them. I have learned a bit of humor can make a difference in your whole day. I have sat in beds which suddenly turn into “spacecrafts” “boats” or  “sleeping beauty” ones. I have learned to see the world through children´s eyes. I have cried over the loss of kids. I have learned that death is hard but it is only a “see you later” and not a “goodbye”.

I have seen the doctors and nurses caring and loving the kids. I have learned what vocation means. I have seen the littlest bodies enduring so much pain. I have learned about strength. I have seen parents crushing in the aisle. I have learned what complete surrender to God meant. I have heard kids giggling and talking with the other hospitalized kids. I have learned how easy it is to start a friendship.

I have seen kids being cured and go back to their “normal” lives with the most loving and positive attitude and biggest smiles. I have learned what it means to be proud of someone. I have heard some of the best jokes inside those rooms. I have learned kids can turn any place into a feast.

I have met the most wonderful volunteers. I have learned what it means to serve. I have heard kids thanking God for a day with a little less pain. I have learned about gratitude. I got to know the best kids in the whole world. I have learned sometimes the best friendships come in the smallest packages. I have seen kids and parents trusting and offering all to God. I have learned the real meaning of faith. I have seen kids fighting with all what they are to be alive. I have learned why i simply cant ever give up.

I´m amazed of how much my heart has grown since i first started going there. How much this children mean for me now. I realized that the best thing i can do while i live in this world is to share my time with others.

But most of all i have learned about love. Love from the nurses and doctors who work daily to help the kids and cure their diseases. Love from the parents who eat nearly nothing and uncomfortably sleep on a chair without even complain, always staying next to them. And of course, love to God in the most genuine way, even when suffering is involved or things seem unfair. I have learned cancer can cause a lot of pain, but it cant kill friendship, love, faith or hope.

The pain this children and their families go through still breaks my heart, it is simply too big to fully understand. And most of the time, it hurts me to think there´s nothing i can do about that. But even if we cant take away their pain, there are many ways in which we can help. Donating, volunteering, getting informed, visiting and collaborating with organizations, researching online, praying, spending quality time with them, learning about its symptoms and promoting how to detect it earlier, offering your ears to parents who are in need of speaking their hearts out, donating your hair to make wigs or talking about it so more people get aware of this topic are just some of the things we can do to help.

September is the Childhood Cancer Awareness Month, but the truth is every single day there are kids fighting with this, being diagnosed, losing their lives. So we cant stop it here. We must continue to raise awareness the rest of our lives, while they fight to live theirs. 💛


Over the last years i have met the bravest and most adorable superheroes in the world. Some of them changed their capes for angel wings, but for me all of them still live. In my heart they will forever and always be alive.

My little warriors, i wanna thank each one of you and your parents with all of my heart. Thanks for letting me come in during such a difficult moment in your life and treating me like family all the time. You have taught me there is no disease stronger than our hearts and smiles, and that this life is worth any fight!! Thanks for being my teachers. Thanks for painting my heart with gold. I ought you so much. And i promise i will never stop being your voice. I WONT LET YOU FIGHT THIS BATTLE ALONE.  💛

Son-flower!!!

There is something about sunflowers that always make my soul sigh. I love their yellow tones and the way they grow, so tall and strong as if they wanted to touch the sky. They are my favorite flowers, not only because they are inordinately beautiful but also because i can learn a lot from them.

In spanish they are named “girasol” (turn to the sun) cause they literally need to turn towards the sun, otherwise they cant grow. And i think the same happens to us; we also need “rays” to grow, and those rays come from God. But, when we stop seeking God, when we focus on our problems, our past, our mistakes or what we dont have we cant grow. It is when we keep our gaze towards Him that we remember how blessed we are and we start to grow. 

When sunflowers feel they arent getting enough rays of sun they need to turn around. They continually move cause they trust the sun. So just like sunflowers, we need to trust in the “Son” and turn back to God when we arent receiving enough light. 

Of course sometimes it´s easier to stay in our place, sometimes we feel afraid from the things that happen in our lives and we paralyze. But the truth is, when we choose to stay in our comfort zone we get far away from our “sun rays” and we dont grow.

We need to let ourselves be led by God; sometimes it will require difficult moves but we need to trust the purpose of the direction He is leading us to. Cause it is through it that we will be strengthened, that He will make us develop into something as majestic as sunflowers. For me, they are nature´s poetical way to express adoration and faith. And i love that in fact, they look themselves like the sun, with each of its petals resembling the rays. So just like them, i also want to resemble the Son, i want to be firmly planted and in constant search of the light.

I WANT TO BE A SON-FLOWER. 💛

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“World Youth Day” is not only a “day”!!

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Today marks a month since i came back from Poland, where i attended the World Youth Day!! My friends and family have been asking if i´ll make a post about my time there, but to be honest i´ve been avoiding writing this down. Not because i didn´t want to share it with you, but because i feel there´s nothing i could ever say that would make justice for what i experienced those days.

I don´t know if you ever felt that way about something…but somehow i feel scared of reducing such a wonderful, deep and spiritual experience into simple words. But now i have come to realize that even if i can only share a bit of it with you, it is worth it. It doesn´t have to be perfect or complete, it just needs to be honest. So i will speak out of my heart and share with you some impressions from my WYD time.

I must start saying the trip was absolutely perfect in every way. The fact that it involved things like waiting one hour in line for simply taking a shower, using a backpack as pillow and sleeping on the floor, walking miles and miles for getting breakfast, waking up early and sleeping very late, collide with massive crowds and doing a big effort to fit inside the bus or tram, sweating a lot and constantly looking like a mess don´t change this statement at all. 

I know it could sound as if it was a tough or uncomfortable experience, but let me tell you one thing…while i was there i didn´t think about this at all. God was so evidently present during this time that those little things were completely blurred. 

Beyond that, the trip consisted of all i could dream of and more… things as meeting wonderful people from all around the world, attending a multitude of masses, eating insane amounts of chocolate, ice cream, apples and bread (and more bread), visiting breathtaking places, watching sunrises and sunsets, learning about history, kayaking, renewing my baptism vows, singing and dancing without control, showing up on TV, trying the most delicious food, visiting museums, listening to local legends, speaking out my heart, living in different homes, going to the sea, learning new songs, taking photographs, visiting historical places and cities, seeing the Pope, going to concerts, enjoying the sun and the rain, praying in the most sincere way, visiting our Lady of Czestochowa, meeting a talented “catholic illusionist” and watching his show, having the most wonderful polish “parents” and “grandma” in the world, learning words in different languages, meeting a dear friend i haven´t seen for so long, laughing deeply and encountering with God…..just to mention some. 

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Deus Meus concert.
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Kayaking adventure.
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Singing and dancing at the Missionaries of Charity.
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Friends in the train.
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Holy Mass.
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Learning the “Belgium dance”.
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Works of Mercy: feeding the hungry.

In fact, i could write a whole book about it, but if i had to sum up my trip i would define it using one simple word: FAMILY!!!! The trip made me feel i belong to something larger and greater than i will ever know, and trust me, there´s nothing as powerful as being part of a family brought together by God. 

One of the most special moments for me was during the last mass (with at least two million people standing by my side) when the WYD hymn started. I was singing in spanish (and the bit of “polish” i learned) while some people next to me were singing the same song in english, german, french, portuguese and other languages i couldn´t even recognize.

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Millions of people united in Love.                                                                         Photo credits: @jornadamundialdelajuventud

As the hymn went on i closed my eyes listening to the people around, and i thought to myself “this is how heaven must be like”… people from every race and tongue united as one, singing and worshiping God. It was the most beautiful melody i ever heard, because it was created by a family which, despite all the different languages, was singing with the heart. 💛

I think for an instant in my life i knew exactly what 2 million people were thinking about, what 2 million people wanted. I became one with them and realized we were seeking the same thing: we all wanted to encounter with Christ!! Words will never describe the love, peace and faith that i experienced there… it was sublime!

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We are called to bring light to the world!
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Our group during the Night Vigil.

The trip constantly reminded me that even though we may have different cultures or languages we all belong to the same family. It reminded me how easy it is to break the ice with just a simple smile; how singing, cheering, dancing and high-fiving are universal ways to bring people together; how any place can turn into a party (especially if there are mexicans in the act); how every meeting is a “spark of friendship”!!!!! 

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Singing, dancing, cheering… all the time.

But what amazed me the most, is that i´ve been reminded how alive is our Church and how many young people have the same desires that i have. It reminded me the joy that being a catholic brings, that even though some people may see religion as something “boring”, “cold”, “rigid” or “old”, there is nothing true about that. World Youth Day reminded me how alive we are and how faith should be a celebration all the time. When i was there i could see young people everywhere and the streets were filled with excitement, music, colors and waving flags all the time. Every single place was swirling joy. You cant imagine how awesome it was.

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The colors of the world.
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Brazil, Germany, Poland, Israel, Canada, Ireland, France and Mexico all together having fun.

That´s something i miss a lot now that i am again at home. The first days back at university were a bit strange… I was walking in the aisle, wondering when will somebody come to give me a pin, a prayer card, friendly words or a high-five… but there was nothing like that. I must say it was hard, most people didn´t even look to the eyes; people seemed uninterested about their own “brothers and sisters” around. 

World Youth Day atmosphere is what i dream the world would always be like; people going out there smiling to “strangers”, cheering each other and seeing friends in everyone. For me, that is exactly the spirit of catholicism, the spirit i dream we would always outshine. But the truth is that our attitude is not always reflecting that. The joyful testament of faith we all manifested in the WYD is not always what we share in our own place, where we constantly let individualism reign. 

I know we are immersed in a world that can easily vanish this cheerful faith, but we can´t let that happen. We can´t let our routines make us forget the call that Pope Francis made to all of us. We can´t “vegetate”. Not anymore!!!!

What we are called to do as a Church is to make everyone experience this supreme joy we experienced in the World Youth Day. We need to be friendly and merciful, live our faith with enthusiasm, keep our hearts young and make everyone know they are loved; not only during this “big events” but in our daily lives. 

So, after a month of coming back i feel confident to say World Youth Day didn´t end for me yet. Actually, it has just begun!!!! Now, more than ever i am convinced that together, as a family, we can be the change we wish for the world. I´ve been encouraged by the Pope to bring love and hope to the world. I´ve been blessed to live this experience so now i am called to share it with the world, to spread God´s message just like the apostles did 2000 years ago. 

So, to all of those who were there too, and also those who weren´t there but share the same wish, i pray you experience the WYD spirit in your heart for the rest of your life, that you wont let it die. I pray that this wont be just a trip that forms part of our memories, but a constant way of living our lives. I pray that we stay firm in faith and don´t let the world take away our enthusiasm. 

Cause the truth is, we will never change the world just by going to the WYD or to the church, in order to change it we have to BE the Church. I pray that we all exemplify and let the world know that our Church is not old. That we remember our Church is young and alive, and that it needs our joy!!!!!!

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Jesus, on the center of our lives.

My trip to Poland taught me a lot about the power of community, and it is safe to say that I left a piece of my heart in this country that i call now “home”. I’m amazed, inspired, and incredibly grateful for the people God placed around me.

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My new family.

So to all my new “family” members…Dziękuję!! THANKS!!! I honestly can´t think of anything better than exploring the world, celebrating my faith and spending intentional time with people as amazing as you are. You have impacted my life more than words can dare to explain. Thank you for teaching me so much. I pray with all my heart that our family will be evidence of GOD´S MERCIFUL LOVE. 💛

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Filled with joy. This is the youth of the Pope!!!

Note: I want to make a big shout out to Sergio Platonoff, my wonderful and talented friend who took most of the pictures posted here and captured the adventures of the trip. Thank you for letting us keep these memories!!!